It's not like that

I'd like to start off this new post differently. This one is not about love, it's not about perfect guys, or about stereotypical high school drama this is about CHANGE. I'd like to thank you, and yes I expect you to know who you are for giving me this opportunity. Life is wonderful and I am now able to look at it without any clouds shrouding my vision. I can now see clearly who I am, what I want, and mainly you have let me understand reality. Isn't that what you said I lacked? I now understand that no matter how many times someone says they care about you, they will still hurt you. I'm not saying it was a melodramatic breakup that I will need the next few months to get over because it's definitely not one of those. I had always seen it coming it just hadn't happened. I want to thank you for letting me realize that half the people out there are fake, they pretend to be caring and tell you the L word and stay up all night listening to your plans. It all seems so grand and wonderful at the beginning but it's all an act. There are a few people out there who genuinely care. That leads to our conclusion; I want to thank you for allowing me to open up my heart and let those people in. Those who I know will never let me down, just like I thought you would. I wish you a wonderful, painstakingly, realistic life. Don't drown in your misfortunes, there's always a sunny side. :)

L***

Yes, it's the most commonly used word, it's directed torwards food, clothes, and objects more than it is reffered to people. It's a one syllable, four letter word, no silent letters. Simple. Simple? NO. Well not for me if there was a formula that calculated the exact moment at which this feeling were felt It'd be so much easier. But I guess a part of the magic it is described by is due to the fact that you must also go through the process of realizing what it means. Is it the moment you look into his eyes and see promise, feel hope? Is it the moment your heart stops when you see him? Is it the moment you realize you'd be the happiest girl in the world if you had him right by your side at all times? or is it the moment you sit in class and re-play his words over and over again? It might be all of these. It might be none, I don't know. But what I do know is that I will search, I will find the meaning to this word.

SKyscraper

Skies are crying, I am watching
Catching teardrops in my hands
Only silence, as it's ending, like we never had a chance.
Do you have to make me feel like there's nothing left of me?

You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper, like a skyscraper

As the smoke clears
I awaken and untangle you from me
Would it make you feel better to watch me while I bleed
All my windows still are broken but I'm standing on my feet


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Get it RIght

I'm tired of messing everything up in my life, for once, maybe, could I finally get it right?

Unsolvable Math Problem

The worst math problem is you. I have no clue how to solve it, how to make it work, I don't even know where to start.

What A Girl Wants

 What do most girls my age want? I'll begin to explain. Most girls my age want the perfect body, the perfect hair, cutest clothes, and of course the perfect High School dream. They want to have the cutest boyfriend who always listens, who never lies, and never judges. Most girls my age want a fantasy. What they need is a REALITY CHECK! I could call my self a not-average teen girl. Yes, I worry about my looks and what people think about me but then again who doesn't? Most importantly what I worry about is my future. Sometimes I think I worry way to much about what I will be, who I will become, but I'm beginning to learn to slow down...to enjoy my childhood. You don't need to be perfect you just need to be you. I think the most important lesson all girls should learn is that one of self love, I have gone through it,yes, everyone has something little they wish they could change.

Where to start

 I have no clue where to start, actually I'm clueless. Haha. Well this is the first day to start my blog and basically I'm writing this because I want to have somwhere to write down my thoughts. I want to be able to have somwhere to write down my thoughts and be able to not worry who reads them. I watched this video today and it really struck me. I would like to show this video to everyone out there and to know it affected them in the slightest.

Crazy, Beautiful

 My life is craxy, its beautiful, its me.